Left Right n Center!!!

Every where I look all I can see is people getting engaged/married/celebrating anniversaries/ getting pregnant left right n center.....  n I know tht I'm being cynical but I HATE it.

HATE...ya I know its a pretty strong emotion but I do feel it along with a couple of other negative emotions - fear, despair, self doubt to name a few. I just can't believe I'm one of the last few people from my school, junior college, under grad college n MBA school, who still hasn't settled down!!!!!!!!

Its not tht I am cynical aways or I don't njoy my life at the moment but I aways feel tht I want more n tht I DESERVE more. 

Just looking at all those happy pictures on Facebook n Orkut makes me wish tht these were my profiles (sigh!!!!!!). I've had it with just being happy for others (for most parts i AM genuinely happy)...but i want to give others a chance to feel that for me too. 

All I have in the name of love n relationship are 2-3 mistakes. 

1st one with my classmate in MBA. It didn't even last for 2 months before we started fighting like cats n dogs n after one n a half yr of crying everyday over it, it was finally over . 

2nd a 3 week fling with a guy who got serious while I was getting over my ex. I wonder whether he was really into me or just about liked tht the touhy feely thing tht happens with new couples. 

I'm now on to my 3rd mistake - having long, heartfelt, late night phone chatting sessions with an old but strongest crush of my life. The conversations hv started moving towards something short of phone sex. No mistake here some one wud say but before I get carried away I should mention one thing ------ he's MARRIED  ..........I'm doomed :( 

I don't mean to be bitter n end up alone. I want to be happy. I want someone to wake me up every day, hold my hand while crossing roads, get wet in the rains with me, try cooking with me in the kitchen. Some one on whose shoulders I can cry when I return home after a bad day in office. Some one who cud give me flowers n tell me tht I look pretty. One with whom I can watch thestars at night n watch horror movies. One who is as happy to be with me as much I am being with him. Some who I can consult while picking up a dress, kitchen appliances, gifts, on how much to tip etc. Some one who I can plan my old age with. Is this asking too much?

 GOD r u listening ??????

~Soni~

 

Go GOA!!!!!

I recently visited Goa for a weekend break n i must say the whole time i was there i was there i was thinking of only 2 things - Why had i never been there bfore???????  n I hv to mk a return trip sooooooooonnnnn!!!

Goa has been forever known as the only place in India where its party time all yr long. It has evry thing- beaches, sun, sand, tons n tons of booze, skimply clad people, water sports n the likes.

These r a few of the pics showing my effort to capture the beauty of tht place

~Soni~

Is it Right??????????

I admit i'm creatively challenged....but i'm not sure whether changing name of one's blog frequently is bad.

I do feel a bit guilty though....as evry other blogger i too want people to read my posts, comment n in the process encourage me. So in an effort to do tht i try to find a name tht's funny, catchy yet which reflects me. Now i do realize tht if smeone wud revisit my blog after the first instance it wud purely b based on the fact tht how much my life's trivia amazes thm....still

So far i'v managed to come up with Virgin diaries, Hope n Dreams  n the latest Mad Mad Mili. Let me explain the reasons for change. 

1.  Virgin diaries : this title had to do with the fact tht i'm a virgin in the sense tht i still hv to discover a lot in this journey called life. Changed bcoz whn one fine day i decided to google my blog's name, i found tht my blog was nowhere to be found n top of tht it threw at my face links of semi - porn sites .... too bad 

       

moving  on 

2. Hope n Dreams : these two words describe how i deal with life's dramas. Changed because it sounded more like opening to some kind of heavy duty sermon.  

n the latest n i think the last in the series 

3. Mad Mad Mili : till now my best effort. it tells every one tht i'm MAD n tht the posts tht follow will prove my point.

I think i'll stick with this. Wt say...

~Soni~

Happy Holi :)

Hey all,

Today is the festival of colours n so i wish tht all u guys had gr8 fun today. Evn though i didn't play this yr, it was nice just to b with family, cooking traditional delicacies with mom, reminiscing abt the old times etc..

So once again Happy Holi to all...

~Soni~

Meaning of LIFE

Though I still hv to find out the real meaning n purpose of my life I thought tht a post abt how some wise people hv described life, wud b vry appropriate. 

So here r some sayings n quotes which really help me whn i'm down n out.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

*** Its soooo true in my case***

True love cannot be found where it truly does not exist, 
Nor can it be hidden where it truly does.

*** I have experienced the first line....waiting for the second***

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! 

*** Just reading this line made my heart ache***

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; 

they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

***I'm struggling to live by this principle***

I Want a guy who calls me Beautiful instead of Hot, who calls me back when I hang up on Him,Who will stay Awake just to watch Me Sleep. The guy who Kisses my Forehead, who wants to Show me off to the World, who Holds my Hand in front of his Parents, who Thinks I'm just as Pretty with no make- up on, the one who is cconstantly Reminding me of How much he cares about Me and how Lucky He is to have ME..

*** Will I ever be successful in finding one of these rare variety***

It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. 

*** I'm xperiencing this***

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. 

*** How nicely put***

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. 

*** True but Plain Painful***

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the  right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

*** O God.....please take notcie bcoz I think I'v completed my quota of wrong ones ***

~Soni~